After posting about my goals for 2011 a couple of days ago, I’ve been thinking about what I want to do with my life.  Woah…big question, huh?

What do I want to be when I grow up?

The answer is…so many things.  I want to be so many things.  The problem I am running into in my mind is that there are so many things I want to be fantastic at.  It’s not enough for me to be mediocre at the things I try in my life – I want to be the best at them.  But there is so little time for that, ya know?  It takes time to develop skills and become really great at something.

I know this sounds negative…but it’s really not.  It’s just a result of millions of thoughts running through my brain lately.  I’m just re-evaluating my life and the things I am involved in and wondering if I should be involved in all of them or if I need to let some things fall to the side so that I can pursue the things that I really want to do.  But what are those things?  That is the big question…what are the things that I just think I want to do, but I really am only doing them because I am capable of them so I think I should be doing them?  What are the things that I really WANT to be doing?  How much time do I put into the avenues I want to pursue, and where do I start?

I can’t start everything at once…I know that.  For now, I think that’s the only thing I solidly know.  And honestly, I’m okay with just knowing that for now.  I think it’s enough for me to realize that these are things I need to be figuring out for myself.  So that’s where I’m at.  This isn’t something that is super heavy – they are just thoughts.  And I am thinking through them.  And on top of that, I have hope.  I have hope for my future and I have an overwhelming sense of peace about where I am at in life and the fact that I am now actively trying to sort this and pray this out.

In other news, Stephanie and I are resuming Project Thursday tomorrow for the first time in quite a few weeks – can’t wait!  We have so much to talk about and do…hopefully I don’t fall asleep in the middle of it…I am still catching up on sleep from the last few weeks with the music festival and being completely stretched thin.  Tomorrow should be really fun and I’m sure there will be some Starbucks involved, which is always a bonus.

So these are my thoughts tonight…sometimes I’m very serious – not often, but sometimes…

Every little thing is gonna be alright.

Love love,

Stormie Dae